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Sunday, January 26, 2020

AND ALL WE SEE...


























Good morning
Mister I'm Gonna Blow Up The World
And how are you today
praying to your God Of Territorial Disputes
getting ready to go out with a bang
probably never considering that
once you've enjoyed each of those 72 virgins
happily waiting for you
it may not seem like heaven any more
knowing the way your mind runs
but we never seem to think of the obvious

yes

it's important to fight for what you believe in
but I draw the line at my humanity

and no

God DOESN'T want you to do that
any more than he wants you to pop a fart and whistle Dixie at the library
and I don't know why you look at Him
and see petty
and vengeful
and finite
when I see infinite
like the classroom teacher who knows
you don't take sides in playground disputes
the main thing is for the little buggers to learn something
so you can pass them on to a higher grade
but we ain't there yet
so it's always us and them
and all we see is
an infidel
a nonbeliever
a heathen
an apostate
an unholy
unrighteous
wicked
blasphemer
Jesus
give me a break
what are the chances there's only one path to follow
and each of them shouting OVER HERE
even I can see
that's a mathematical impossibility
if we are all God's children
wouldn't it make more sense to think that
every
belief
system
may have at least a piece of the truth
and if we'd just put our heads together
and compare notes
the bigger picture might come
into sharper focus

but no

you're going to kill
in the name of your God Of The Partial View
in a crowded market
with a bomb strapped to your waist
you are no better
or worse
than the guy
who sends the misguided missile screaming through the sky
the aftermath is going to be just as messy

and oh

a bunch of women and children bit the big one that time
unintentionally of course
collateral damage
back to the drawing board
with a shrug
we're still the good guys
and none of our strutting Suits
have any regrets
I heard them say it
must be nice to sleep at night with NONE
of that on your conscience
you
poor
sad
crazy
numb
deluded
power junkies
too blind to sense
that you're going to be
on the wrong side of history
to a man
it's all a game to you
where the end always justifies the means
well hell
I know it's a game
but still I'd like to play
with as much integrity as I can muster
and be able to shake hands with my opponent afterwards
don't know if you can do that
when he's carrying his dead child in his arms
but you never have to view that close up
never once considering that it's all tainted
from beginning to end
and that nothing good can come from that
which proceeds from a starting point of evil
and that it will hound you
through this lifetime
and how many more
I can't say
your only salvation
your only hope
of escaping karma's
massive kick in the ass
is that maybe...
just maybe...
It's all a dream

Monday, December 30, 2019

DAYDREAM ON AISLE # 7



If you eat a doughnut
then eat it whole
if you leave a fragment
of a doughnut
then it's got no hole
it's no longer whole
it's got no soul

but I've been saved from 

The Hunger
and that's what true salvation 
means
the cravings for an
other
and then another
and another

there's enough sweetness in

the smile of a stranger
with her cart in the super mart
as you glide toward and then
past one another

you let your imagination
out to play for a minute
creating a scenario where
you remark that she has bought
the same kosher dills as you
and then it would begin
but
that could lead you
down the aisle

the wrong one


when you know that you can satisfy 

those cravings well enough now
without the necessity
of making Mistake Number Three

so you tuck that daydream away

and glide on over to 
the doughnut aisle
add to cart
proceed to checkout
and wave goodbye 
Boy George's plaintive voice
echoing sweetly in your ears




Wednesday, December 18, 2019

A LITTLE HOLIDAY CHEER



Holidays are always quiet
for me
since I became a full-fledged
misanthrope.

It's not that I hate people
really
it's just that there's 
so damn many of 'em
everyplace you turn--
the source of all 
the world's evil.

I mean who else would it be...
the kindly elephant???

No worries though
as one by one
the fair-weather friends
drop by the wayside 
like they slipped
on a banana peel.

One day they're there
and the next 
POOF
they've removed themselves
from your life
with nary a word.

Good riddance to bad rubbish
as the quaint old saying goes.

(They've done a favor
actually
and saved you
from having to haul out that trash
yourself.)

More time to watch Dog TV
and I don't even have a dog.
But it makes for a pleasant
and quiet yuletide
as you don't see many humans
on there.
Just a contented mutt
and his bone.

Come to think of it
that describes me to a T.

Happy holidays, y'all!




Thursday, December 12, 2019

COUCH TOMATO





I once met a psychiatrist
on a blind date
and as we sat there
with our drinks
I tried to see what was in her eyes
and what they revealed about
what she was thinking about
me

but as it turned out
she liked me
and wanted to see me again
and I went round and round
in my head about that
as in if we started up with each other
would she be constantly psychoanalyzing me
(why should I care if it's free?)

but in the end I decided I'd feel
too self-conscious in that scenario

which is weird cuz
it was all the rest of 'em
who tried to analyze me
more than she ever would have
and to this day
I know they think
they had me all figured out

Sunday, November 24, 2019

SAY HIS NAME













He is heading out
for open road,
 big rig humming.

Thanksgiving morning.
The day is crisp and clear.

He will eat his holiday dinner
at some truck stop,
where his banter with the waitress--
a kindred spirit--
will be about keeping the world running
while the rest of 'em
spend the day gettin' fat and happy.

In a while,
he will put in a call to Janie and the kids.
They'll be over at mom's today.
In their pre-meal prayer,
they will say his name.

And yes, he is thankful.
Hell...lucky to have a job at all
the way things are going.

The road snakes on to somewhere
anywhere
nowhere.

And the holiday travelers
blow past him,
just another obstacle
in the way
on the way
to their overindulgence.

He remembers how,
in the beginning,
he thought this would be
a romantic kind of life.
But as he looks out now,
across the endless expanse,
he is struck by the thought
that it's kinda like
gazing at the moon
in daylight.



Sunday, November 17, 2019

AFTERWORD


He's just a nondescript dude
 more polite than most
 no need for posturing
at this stage of the game

The one he's not playing


Saw him at the theater

saw him at the school
saw him at the cafe
in the booth
so calm and cool

Think you're a tough guy

and he looks like a pushover
maybe have a little fun
maybe heap some abuse
but you've just drawn to
the worst hand of your life
with the one you never should choose

Talkin bout the man with nothing to lose


Your woman

your job
your booze
will keep you playing the game
by somebody else's rules
and you'll always stop short
of the things he might choose

That man with nothing to lose


Who knows when

the proverbial straw
came into play
suffice it to say
that life has been exposed
as a game for fools
and he is no longer playing
by anyone's rules

When life's no longer

what it seems
you walk along in a dream
a slow motion movie
where there is no sound
and people's eyes appear
to be screaming
and you wonder
in a curious way
if it has anything to do
with you

Saw him at the theater

saw him at the school
saw him at the cafe
in the booth
so calm and cool

And afterward

the afterword
is how did we fail him
but that's easy because
day by day
and each and every day
we shuffle along in a dream
where we wanted to reach out
we had it in our minds
to reach out
we had it on our agenda
to reach out
we had it on our calendar
to reach out
but somehow
we just didn't
and so it's easy to discern
just where we went wrong
my friend
cuz day after day
and each and every day
we
have
all
failed
to
love

Wednesday, October 30, 2019

JUST VAMPING





Bats roll
buzzards troll
freaks plague
your tormented soul
and we are waiting.

We dance by day
we dance by night
here to give you
such a fright
and we are waiting.

Brothers and sisters
we are waiting.
mothers and fathers
we are waiting.
sons and daughters
we are waiting.
sons of bitches
we are waiting.

Angels and whores trade places
in a moonlit masquerade.

Zombies dance
without any pants.

And we are waiting...
for THE NIGHT !

Friday, October 25, 2019

THE WINDS OF CHANGE BLEND WITH AUTUMN ZEPHYRS SIGHING (collaborative poem from Sanaa Rizvi and Timoteo)



HE IS CREAM...SHE IS CHEESE...
WHAT A SPECTACULAR COMBINATION!

Sanaa and I began talking a few weeks ago and seemed to really hit it off. We discovered that we share the love of autumn, and so the poem before you quickly began to unfold. We hope you enjoy it and look forward to hearing your thoughts in the comments.



When the gales of November come early
I’m a total wreck 
wind knocked out of my sails
but I’ve set a course for 
The Sea Of Tranquility
and I’ll be there 
when that big moon 
sweeps these storms from my heart.


Now these clouds
cold, mean and gray sideways rain
point toward the dark road 
my mind is travelling in,
the bruising of November 
teaches one about existence, its brevity 
I wonder if the moon knows time
and course, as leaves curl in colors of Fall.


There is a melancholy vibe 
this time of year--
I can feel it in the forced gaiety 
beginning to build 
as I swim through the crowd, rudderless,
like a paper boat adrift on the breeze,
and for small moments
I will succumb to the mass hypnosis

With wild berries clinging for support,
I observe the breeze, 
an unseen one act nearly farce
painstakingly scrape to leave a patch of stillness
uncovered for a short while,
my lips are stained with the thought of woe
prevalent
hauling one to a place where light cannot reach.


But I’ve had it with these subterranean homesick blues.
I shall emerge from these depths--
the mole in your midst 
burrowing to the sun.
The world is fraught with overt boogeymen.
They cannot frighten survivors
who’ve been to scarier places in their own minds 
than your sardonic smile could ever intimate. 


Let this be the end 
as air’s imbued with wet leaves and contemplation
is a swirl of mist;
a sliver of dark orange disseminating doldrums.
My faith akin to myriad of stones 
that become the shade of highway that lies 
unruffled behind them-- 
I witness the break of day and run forth to embrace.  


Springs and autumns flash by in an instant.
I make a wish and the universe 
rains its poetry down upon me.
To embrace both the darkness and
the light within us is the way of understanding.
November brings the winds of change.
I stand in the awe-filled silence
waiting to feel its sharp graze against my cheek.


I could watch them a while, this feeling that blends 
with fall foliage
for when struck with the right note of sobriety 
even the most dismal of life’s turns are rendered facile. 
The hour smiles and extends its hand to me,
as rain conjures a delicate pattern 
upon my skin 
and the winds of change blend with autumn zephyrs sighing. 


Saturday, October 19, 2019

GOD BLESS



3 a.m. on a Sunday
and I'm tradin' sleep for a poem

thinking 'bout all the folks
who will don their Sunday finery
to hang out in a pew
with you and you and you
and you
still don't get it
that your soul is immortal
and not in need of savin'

but sure
I get it
it's a sense of comm
unity
we gather together to ask 
the Lord's blessing

and even though I'm fallin' apart
in my decrepitude
I'm good to go with all of that
don't feel the need
cuz a coupla peeps singing loudly off key
on either side of me
isn't exactly what I call "inspirational"

having said all that
I'll admit I've prayed before
but it's always been 
a white-knuckled
get me out of this freakin' jam
kinda thing 
and by god 
somehow...
somehow...

so let me say that if you don't feel 
a connection
with something larger than
your own ego
whatever you wanna call it
then I have to wonder about ya
as in how did you miss it?
(ah--your head was buried in your phone!)

goddamn

my pen is running out of ink
so I guess I'll close for now
but it's been nice chatting with you
and if you don't mind 
I'd rather not ruin my rep
as heathen in good standing
so let's just keep all this stuff
between you and me

God bless