I never thought it would come to this...
After happy days and high school plays
Willie Mays and back seat lays
Shadrack Horshak Abednego
and Zeke The Talking Raccoon
after the wheels in my head that wouldn't stop spinning
like a record going round
they wouldn't stop spinning
after getting starstruck
after getting struck by stardom
after I stepped up to the plate
after I stepped up to the mike
after the groupies that hung around
black white and brown
who thought I was something
that I was but wasn't
after all the times I was alone
when I thought that I wasn't
after the receptionist turned pale
and told me I looked like her deceased husband
after I rolled over
played dead
and fetched his bedroom slippers
and tried to fill them
after taking the boss's wife to Mexico on a lark
after gassing up at Texaco and peeing in the park
after the drunks and the skunks and the punks
after the first of the Mohicans
and last of the Puerto Ricans
after Woodstock and Plymouth Rock
after the monkeys and the junkies and the flunkies
after the freaks and the Greeks and the geeks
after golden showers and happy hours
I never thought it would come to this...
After my guru told me that life
is like trying to piss on your shadow
while doing the Macarena
(an Indian guru if you believed all the buzz
though an Indiana guru in fact he was)
after all the rejection in my search for perfection
finding Cinderella's glass slipper
and the hobnail boot she planted up my butt
After the good Samaritan veterinarian in Mexico City
yanked her Levis down to her ankles
and shot his wad in a shotgun blast that peppered us both
as we lay there in a stupor
AND THAT'S WHY I'LL NEVER DRINK TEQUILA AGAIN !!!
After casually tossing the condom that had served its purpose
out the hotel room window in Managua
hearing it splat onto the sidewalk
and someone shouting: AVE MARIA !
I never thought it would come to this...
After all the false starts and missed connections
and what ifs and what the fugs
after to give as good as you git
is to no longer give a shit
after all the days and nights
in the prison of my own desire
all the bittersweet days I remember
in an updated and romanticized version of life
the images colliding like sub-atomic particles
as a thousand million bursting stars
explode in a never ending climax
expanding ever farther into the reaches of space
I never thought it would come to this...
Face to face
at this moment
in this place...
and neither did you