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Saturday, May 23, 2020

ALL IS NOT LOST (IT'S JUST YOU)



What do you do when
you're not a real person
or an actor--
a kind of Mister In-Between
like Burl Ives
whom we never could
determine if he was a
bad fat actor
or a fat bad actor
but we love him
just the same
when snowflakes fly

Everyone should have his time

to rut upon the stage
like two cats
outside your window
keeping you awake at night
or the energetic cast of Oh Calcutta.

There's the real person

(which I told you I'm not) 
and the image one projects
but to act you've got to 
be someone else 
inside your head.

I was born for this role

born into this role
for as I see it now
there was no one else
sickly demented enough
to do it justice.

And it smells medicinal

this bitter pill
you're asking me to swallow
when there's no evidence
it will heal the world 
or even this pesky toenail fungus.

And now I'm beginning to realize

just what you will exact from me  
O Great Spirit
before I ride off into that sunset.

I'll try to take it like a man.


Like puffs of smoke

we are here and gone.

But I've a vision 

that one day
Cherokee Nation 
will return
proud and strong
and so will I...

so will I

28 comments:

  1. Well you have the right idea to never stop dreaming! Why not? For it is the only life we have so we choose (or at least try!).

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    1. Being an insomniac these days, the dreams are few and far between.

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  2. Words with bitterness, resignation and a tinge of hope. That's what I got from your piece.

    Namratha

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    1. And you're not wrong. Thanks for stopping by!

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  3. I confess to loving Burl Ives and not caring which label fits.

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    1. In that case, have a holly jolly Christmas, Rosemary!

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  4. May whatever the Great Spirit extracts from you be worth sniffing!

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    1. Thank you. But they won't sell me glue anymore down at the hardware store.

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  5. ... and I’m ready for my close-up, Mr. DeMille.

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    1. The man with the big cigar is gonna make you a star!

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  6. A toast to you and the Cherokee Nation....yes, and even a sip for Burl Ives!

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  7. Ha ha. You make me think and your poem and mine today are oddly related but done in different voices from different angles.

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    1. They are definitely related. I enjoyed yours so much!

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  8. I have often played the comedian to make others smile while I died inside. Now I play more of a witch. :)

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    1. Congratulations on switching to a role that seems to suit you better! :)

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  9. Good observation: "I was born for this role
    born into this role"

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  10. Nothing is ever as it seems, and no one is ever as he seems~

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  11. This poem expresses such an imperative toward authenticity. I recognize that longing and also the weariness one feels in taking on a task for which (at the beginning) seems impossible of accomplishment. Poetically I like the way you've put the garden of Gethsemane scene to work for your own ends- transmogrifying the story to fit and inform your story. That's one of the things I love about poetry- finding the truth behind a metaphor and reshaping the metaphor until it fits into the new context and truth shines through again out of a different window.

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    1. Thanks for your thoughtful assessment, Christine!

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  12. Perhaps, we need to extract some of the poison we have collected in this world before the great spirit carries us off to the sky world. I was born for this role born into this role...this begs the question is life preordained or do we have the ability to change the role as we travel in our quest for understanding? Just exploring the wanderings of my mind

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    1. I do feel that we come into the world with a plan, so that's a point in favor of the idea of fate, but then plans often go awry through the exercise of our free will.

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  13. Oh no...you have been channelling my negative thoughts...it is difficult to cling on to hope at the moment...i'm off to make myself a boiled egg (3 minute) and some toast. That gives me a little joy...Take care of yourself

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    1. Sounds like me, only I'm an over easy guy. It does seem more and more like finding a distraction for the moment is the objective to keep those morbid thoughts at bay. Peace be upon you, sister!

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  14. Like the Burl Ives bit and the whole poem, in fact...funny, sardonic and wise, that toe nail fungus is a bugger!

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    1. Yes it is, and just one more thing one may have to deal with on top of everything else. Will it never end???

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  15. I have to admit that my relationship with Burl Ives is very close to zero... but I can see certain people playing similar roles...

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